27 December 2016

either black or blue

What if i told you that i started to see unusual things

I don't know whether people could also, but of course it's new for me

And it's frightening

I started to see many things depicted in physical forms, when back then i couldn't even, and i've been asking how and why as well

And yes, it's fucking frightening

They're flying, layers after layers, pieces after pieces

They're all flying, some just suddenly gone mid air, some take few moments to disappear

But they're all flying

They all came out of every person, every single living person, even the ones who had lost their sanity

But no, none of them came out of any graveyard

I'm seeing a dozen right now, of which 3 came out of my mom from several days ago and yesterday, and the rests came out of me in a span of only less than a week

They all came out mostly after every truth

Normally one at a time

Yet in some cases multiples of them might burst simultaneously

They're all fading, although perhaps some took quite long, and i've seen many that hasn't been started to fade ever since i spotted them

But i concluded that every single piece of them will eventually fade no matter how long it took, and i'm certain about it

They will all fade

One by one

Until there's nothing left










i see hopes in the colors of black



and blue

10 November 2016

T R U M P

ATTENTION! THE WHOLE WRITINGS IS UTTERLY MY PLAIN OPINION TO DEFY TRUMP'S WINNING THROUGH SOME POINTS OF VIEWS WHICH I'M NOT AT ALL AN EXPERT AT, SO PLEASE I'LL BE REALLY GLAD TO BE CORRECTED IF THERE WERE EITHER CONCEPTUAL OR FACTUAL MISTAKES. AND TRUST ME, SOME OF YOU WILL DEFINITELY CLOSE THIS PAGE IMMEDIATELY FOR YOU THINK WHAT I WROTE IS NONSENSICAL BULLSHITS YOU DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK AT, BUT TRUST ME, THESE SUCH BULLSHITS LIKE POLITIC, SOCIAL, AND ECONOMY ARE INTERESTING AND NOT THAT HARD TO LEARN, ALTHOUGH IT IS THAT HARD TO COMPREHEND (?)

So, the controversial Donald Trump has officially won the president election at 9th of November 2016. Many have been analyzing how could such thing occur, and still trying to look for Trump's flaws, nonetheless he already won, and i'm one of the non-experts who knows no shit who tries to do both.

27 August 2016

Voting Flaws #2

Wait, brace yourself. I named this post Voting Flaws #2 yet i don't know whether or not the materials are still relevant, but... yeah you know it's my blog, so fuck it aight.

Now, as what i've written in the previous post, as i can recall, i wrote that our ideology is the root of the problem, now i think i'm gonna elaborate that sentence first in this post before i ever try to explain anything about a new system (since i haven't had it anyway).

26 June 2016

Voting Flaws #1

Been thinking about the voting system and its flaws.

So of course these thoughts came from Brexit referendum a couple days ago and i think the flaws of voting system are placed in the pre event.

Well here are some questions regarding the condition of pre voting, don't we need to know the capacity of the individuals who are going to take the vote? Don't we need to make sure that everyone is seeing the case through the same scope of analysis? Don't we need to make sure that naivety won't win for everything about it will lead into consequences?

07 May 2016

Menolak Untuk Bodoh

Permasalahan utama mayoritas rakyat terhadap negara adalah apatisme yang kelewat ngejamur, khususnya terjadi pada generasi muda yang notabene generasi penerus bangsa. Dan kayanya bahasan di post ini mau gua persempit jadi ke generasi muda aja deh karena gua pribadi pun masih ada di generasi ini dan kayaya kurang fair aja kalo ngejudge golongan tua yang gua sendiri pun belom pernah ngalamin.

Jadi, post ini bakal bahas ketidapedulian generasi muda terhadap aktualitas iklim politik, ekonomi, dan situasi negara Indonesia yang sebenarnya cukup penting untuk diperhatikan agar negara kita terhindar dari hegemoni semacam rezim orba pada tingkat ekstrimnya dan menghindari praktik kkn golongan tua yang menjabat sebagai petinggi negara pada tingkat nyatanya.

20 April 2016

His Affront

These thoughts ran through my head this afternoon and i think i'll write them out although they're not that factual and a bit conjectural since almost every sciences i'm going to write themselves are still hypotheses and data predictions. And i'm pretty sure that at least one person will deem i'm that stupid to write something i don't know a shit about. Well, i don't care about that, i'm in the process of learning, and everyone knows mistakes often take place in this process.

So i was reading one of my old post with a blurry closing. At first i wanted people to have their own interpretation upon what i wrote in that post, and now i can't stand to explicitly explain what i wrote in that post. Dang it's that hard to be Kubrick. So, it's up to you whether to read the old post or not http://deniahmadghifari.blogspot.co.id/2015/09/paradigm-shift.html

05 April 2016

Debacle Orienting

NOOOWWW i'm going to write about something rather actual, in Indonesia. A topic which is of course, as always, at least a decade behind the first world countries.

So, i'm gonna write about sexual orientations, specifically Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender, but more to the existence rather than the explanations. Well this orientation thing is always debatable since we couldn't yet answer the major question, which is "Is it nature or is it nurture?" and i did some discussions with the pros and cons, and yes i have my own untested assumptions regarding this topic.

Before we proceed, i'll tell you the most recent condition about LGBT, of individuals, of movements, and the most important thing, of majority's perspective, in Indonesia.

24 March 2016

Utopia NKRI

Gua baru nyadar kalo ternyata gua belom pernah nulis soal pendidikan, khususnya dunia pendidikan Indonesia, disini secara terperinci. Jadi karena gua kebelet nulis tapi gatau mau nulis apa, ya bahas ini aja deh.

Jadi gini, gua tanya dulu, apakah semua yang lagi baca kalimat ini setuju kalo ada banyak kesalahan dalam dunia pendidikan Indonesia? Terutama dalam sistemnya? Kalo gak semuanya berpikiran begitu, tolong baca sampe selesai. Dan kalo udah baca sampe selesai tapi masih berpikiran sama, coba hubungin gua dan kasih koreksi atas kesalahan interpretasi atau analisa gua yang ditulis di post ini.

16 March 2016

Pestilential Moron

I suggest you to read this 'how to be a quantum mechanics expert in 10 minutes for dummies' by Stephen Hawking first before proceeding, trust me the whole explanation in the following link i will give to you is worth the time you'll spend to read since you can easily understand it, and make you feel like a professor afterward. Just read it.

www.hawking.org.uk/does-god-play-dice.html

So this dumbshit who's writing this post has some very simple questions for that article. First, what would be happened to a pair of a particle and an anti particle that separated in not only cosmological space, but also time? Well as it is explained on that article about the black hole, it warps space time. So what's gonna happen to one particle outside the black hole which got left by the anti which either entered or sucked into a black hole that has a gravity so massive it warps space time?

Well i got a little lost here, how do we even find out which one is the anti particle of one particle, especially when one of it is inside the black hole, which is currently impossible to find out since the black hole keeps the whole information from everything which has entered it for it has a gravity too strong that the current speed limit of the universe can't even beat.

I mean like, if the particle stood still, as if how the particles should be, even after it got left by the anti particle into the black hole, how do we even prove that the whole things exist in the present? How do i even know that i'm writing this post? I mean like back to the previous question, how could we even know which particle outside the black hole that has the anti particle inside the black hole? You know that black hole will probably bends more than 10.000 years of time just to approach the inside of it from its outermost gravitational field and yet we don't even know how much will time warps inside it, i don't know if there's one microscopic particle, since of course the scope of quantum mechanics is the microscopic particles, that will last more than 10.000 years just to wait for the movement of the anti.

And what would happened to the anti particle that is either on its way to the black hole or inside, while the particle outside the black hole, is moving.

SPACE AND TIME BENT NEAR THE BLACK HOLE, IMAGINE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO THE ANTI PARTICLE.

Guess i'll stop before i get looked too fool, answer anyone?

So this is the point where i think i can guarantee that i will be standing on the same line as Albert Einstein had stood until the day i die, God does not play dice with the universe, since i think that no one knows what God is, even Hawking, even perhaps God himself. God might be me, or you, or anybody else, or science, or gravity, or the particles, or physics, or anything else, or everything.

But i also have one new notion that even contradicts Einstein's,

"Fuck you God for making me love Physics, and yet can't stand numbers."

So i guess i'll be waiting for them all scientist fuckers to make some new steps while whining about their own discovery of science, and definitely stick with the Google and newspaper.

02 March 2016

A Thousand Pictures

Okay this post is correlated with the very previous one. Don't bother to read the previous, and also don't bother to read this one too. I somehow just want to write yet i don't really know why. So as usual, this post will be containing those shitty quality assumptions and hypotheses i built in my damn head. So once again, don't bother to read it like really, i'm not even sure if i have conveyed anything the right way, i mean i'm not even sure that those who read actually comprehend what i wrote, since i don't even understand it myself.

So i better cut the bullshit and continue the previous post.

01 February 2016

A Thousand Words

Well i can recently declare that i am the most invisible guy in this world. No one has ever noticed my presence regardless how hard i try, although i always think that i could always win anyone, but no it isn't now. I don't know what hell is wrong with this whole world, and neither with me.

So i suppose this is one of those desperate posts i barely made. It's just, i don't know, i just think no one would ever actually listening which is quite stupid if i keep trying to talk to anybody about this nonetheless i knew that no one would ever listen, and i also not enjoying a conversation of this sort. So, this blog is all i got left, this shit for once again will be turned into a diary of puberty boy.

Pay attention to the contradictions between both paragraphs above, yes my life is that ironic for now. It's just, i'm feeling like i have nowhere to come home to, at all. I just feel like what the hell is going on, everything was fine, but what is it right now? Where's the burning point? Or what? I just don't know what or why, but i just feel like "dude this is not what i live for, no one has ever wanted a life like this one." But i suppose my current position is a more precise phrase, not life.

So, what are we talking about? I think i won't write my problems right here like shit why the fuck would i? Of course i would rather talk about people's problem rather than my own because fuck you my life is not a public consumption. I just don't wanna be naked in front of everybody, wait... i actually want to... but forget it, you all got the metaphor, and fuck don't be so hypocrite about your curiosity on how it feels like to live as our ancestor, which "being naked" is also included.

So, i am wondering about this idiom lately

10 January 2016

Mumble Jumble

I'm going to talk about pattern nonetheless it doesn't always show up but you can often find it is there around.

So, i have my own interpretation concerning the meaning of stupidity.

Stupidity isn't about the capacity of one's brain nor the capability of anything. Stupidity is an utter condition. No one has ever been born as a stupid since anyone could only be stupid by their own decision. Stupidity is a sort of situation where one's refusing to understand regarding anything they don't although they should, such a condition where one's stop exploring for they are easy to please, easy to be satisfied of themselves, excusing themselves in what they are incapable of, and one more condition of being stupid, blaming fate is the stupidest of all. And the explanation in this paragraph only applies toward mankind.